They say, life is all about choices. I hate the fact that so-called bull shit is actually true. There is some time where you have to choose because you can not have it all. Choosing between what you want and what you actually need. Right at this very moment, that is what I'm going through..
I'm being in the middle of something that forced me to choose. To analyze using logical mind without ignoring the feeling I had. It is quite hard because my mind is often being fooled by my own heart. But then again, I really have to choose. Try my best to put aside my ego and start to think of other people. I've put all the past behind me, trying to forget everything. The good, the bad, and the not-so-very good. But it seems like the problem is not stopping at that point. There's still some other issues that keep coming up.
I don't want to turn myself into a bad person, because I know I'm not. I avoid myself in being a selfish bitch that thinks all the world is only surrounding around her. In this case, I also don't want to hurt anybody no more because I've hurt them enough already. Really should find a way to make it better. But how does it start?
Tame Impala - Why Won't You Make Up Your Mind?